Huge Changes Upcoming

Last year my husband had WLS, having the Gastric Sleeve. He lost 130 pounds over the course of the year and feels amazing and looks good. It was not my choice for him as I knew that he probably wasn't ready for it, but he has done well. WLS has always been on my mind for years. However, most insurance companies will not pay for it without some underlying medical condition. Well I don't have any of those and haven't that we know of developed them. So WLS was just a thought in the back of my mind. Over time my mind set changed and I couldn't help but think that WLS was a quick way out. If you work hard at losing weight the weight will come off, right? Or so I thought! I tried and tried, different trainers, 5-6 days in the gym, better food, etc. Guess what I gained weight. Month after month I watched as the scale slowly moved upward. This is not the result that I wanted to see. Devestation! Then my husband had reached the part in his life that he had no choice but to make a change. In comes WLS. Still my mindset is I just need to work harder. My husband started with the new trainer that everyone sees after WLS and loved him. So I started seeing him as well. He has been a game changer for me. I have these new found muscles that I never had before and I feel so much better but guess what, I gained weight. I get that with new muscles comes weight gain but along with that should come some loss. Nope, none. The trainer has been really good about understanding how I felt about WLS but we continue to talk about it, which has probably been the best thing for me. So the decision has finally been made that I want to have WLS. Since September I have been seen the nutritionist and the psychologist, and yesterday was the surgeon. I have not gotten my hopes up that the insurance will pay for it but from the sounds of it I think it will be approved. I am starting to look forward to the WLS and the results that I should see from it. I see my Doctor from surgery clearance this week and next week is the Gastroenterologist. If my calculations are correct probably by July I will be having surgery and starting this new journey.

Day 157 of 365

I think I have fiqured out my body, but I am sure once I say that things will change. I have been doing more protein and less carbs and it seems to be working. Protein shakes at least twice a day, and then one maybe two meals depending on hungry I am. I also have to get on the scale at least 3 times per day. Once in the morning, once at lunch or when I get home in the evening, and once before I go to bed. This seems to help keep me on a consistent downward trend. I have not been counting calories or limiting my food intake. I eat all my protein first, then veggies, then if I have room for other things (which I usually dont) I will eat that. I don't eat until I'm stuffed, I only eat until I feel like I am getting full. I know at some point this may level off and I will have to find something else, but for right now, I am going with what works. Because it has certainly been a long time since I found anything that works.

Day 2 of 365

Wednesday, January 2, 2013 The plan for this week was to make sure that I wore my armband everyday; so far so good. I just uploaded my info for today and we will see how things go the rest of the week.

New Diet

Today starts a new diet! Should be a good day.

The Tom Cruise of all Race Photos

Such an inspirational story.  You go Jackie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Tom Cruise of all Race Photos

Catching up!

July 17 18:50mins, 1 mile treadmill
July 21 18:37 mins, 1 mile treadmill
July26 28:24 mins, 1.5 miles treadmill
July 27 27:08 mins, 1.5 miles treadmill
July 27 5.13 meters, 2:59 mins rower
July 28 10:14 mins, 0.54 miles treadmill ( not feeling well)
Aug 1 26:18 mins, 1.5 miles treadmill
Aug 3 26:53 mins, 1.5 miles treadmill
Aug 7 27:59 mins, 1 mile treadmill
Aug 8 26:41 mins, 1 mile treadmill
Aug 22 36 mins, 2.37 miles elliptical
Aug 23 14:38 mins, 1 mile elliptical
Aug 23 45:20 mins, 1.44 miles treadmill
Aug 23 52:27 mins, 2 miles treadmill
Aug 24 60:12 mins, 2.5 miles treadmill
Aug 24 60 mins ryans DUT class
Aug 25 nothing

How things change so quickly!

How things change so quickly. Well I guess it hasn't been that quickly but it sure seems like it.

The hubby wanted to switch gyms. He was not happy with 24 hour fitness and a friend mentioned UFC gym in concord, so we checked it out. Although it is more expensive we are so much more happier, especially me. I hadn't told him I was really struggling at the gym so it was nice to see that he was too. We are now members at UFC and love, love it. I wish there were more hours in the day to spend time there.
I am "Tom-boy" through and through, always have been, always will be. I like to hit things so UFC and I are a good fit. I love the Muay Thai classes, the boxing classes, the DUT (daily ultimate training) classes...so we spend a lot of time here. I even have a personal trainer that I love, although she scares me :)

Anyway, my husband was really heavy for awhile and he wasn't happy so he started on diets to go meals and doing double days at the gym. He has been losing weight but kept complaining cause I wasn't taking his diet serious and always wanted to eat out. And he was right, but I wasn't doing it to sabotage him, it was probably more of excuse for me. But then I no longer had a choice when my gall bladder was acting up and I had to have it out. I can't eat foods like I use to, I'm too afraid they will make me sick. Which means hardly any eating out, eating better foods at home, etc.

But my motivation to work harder came from the hubby, but he doesnt know that yet. He has lost some weight (guessing close to 40-50 pounds) and he is looking good. I'm a very competitive person and I just can't let him beat me at looking good, so I've been doing double days in gym as well. And since I am behind already it is motivation for me to work that much harder. I can't let him beat me :)

Confessions

As if you can't tell it has been awhile since I have been to the gym or anywhere near a gym. Why? I don't know I lost the desire to want to be there. I haven't stepped on a scale either and only recently have I gotten the desire to even look at the number again, but I haven't yet. I am not concerned about it at all. I am wearing my 24 jeans and they are loose on me. If I am not wearing a belt I can pull them down without unbuttoning them. My work pants are fitting better than they have in a long time. Worried about it? No, but I know if I don't start back at the gym it won't last that long.

I lost my desire and I can't seem to find it.

This mornings workout

10.35 mins, 0.52 mils, 81.7 calories 30 mins of weights

Last few workouts

26 min on elliptical 1.86 miles, weights

35 min on treadmill 1.87 miles, weights

33 min on treadmill 1.71 miles, weights

Friday workout

Treadmill: 1.71 miles 33 mins
Some weights

I have been in a little funk lately. I am burned out, I know that, and I can't seem to shake it. I ended up cancelling my valetine's dinner with the hubby because I was easily irritated with something he said. It is raining again and it sucks. I was enjoying the sun and the 70-80 degree weather around here. Spring please come soon!

Wednesday

1 hour on treadmill: 2.81 miles, 418.7 calories
some weights

Wednesday:

10 mins elliptical
30 mins treadmill
weights

Friday:

I had the flu :(

Saturday:

Still down with the flu and now kids are sick too :0

Sunday:

Nothing

Monday:

Nothing

Tuesday:

Nothing

Today: 20 mins on elliptical and weights

Yesterday: 15 mins on elliptical and weights

10 minutes on eliptical 0.46 miles

Life is so hectic!

Life has been crazy around my house all summer. We have been busy all summer with kids traveling, work, and a new puppy.

Not much has changed including my weight. I am still about the same as the last time I posted. Which is somewhat of a good thing (means I didn't gain anything). We have been making some changes around the house that have helped and getting our eating habits under control. I can tell you that when you work in a job like I do your eating habits suck all the time.

But just wanted everyone to know that I am still here. I will post more soon.

Motivation from a 4 year old

It has been a long time since I have posted. Work schedules change, kids have new activities, and life happens. I don't mind. I could not seem to fiqure out how to get to the gym with my new work schedule. Granted I belong to 24 Hour Fitness and they are open 24 hours, but when I don't get off until midnight and I have to be up by 6:50 am to wake the kids for school, I would seriously be cutting in to my sleep time. But this week I have found my new motivation...she is 4 years old. Imagine that! Let me explain.

Sunday my husband and I stopped by the gym to add my 14 year old son, while there my husband stepped on the scale in front of me. I had to look are you kidding...this is the man that insist on putting his foot on the scale while I was being weighed at the doctor's office everytime I was pregnant. The one time the scale read almost 400 pounds and I about died, and the nurse gave me a funny look before we realized it was him. Yea I looked at the scale while he was weighing himself. 324 pounds! The first words out of my mouth is "324 pounds are you serious!" His response was but I have my clothes on. Really! So I made him pull out his free 50 minute coupon with the personal trainer and schedule it for the next day. I think he knew he no longer had a choice. To be supportive I also went to the gym the day of his appointment. I let him do his thing and I did mine. However, with both of us at the gym, the 4 year old had to go to kids club. She had never been and I was concerned she might not like it. She loves it! So for the last 2 days when she wakes up she ask "Can we go to the gym today!" So I can not disappoint the 4 year old, I must go to the gym.

So that boils down to 3 days already at the gym this week and its only Wednesday. When I picked her up at kids club today she didn't want to leave so I had to promise to bring her back tomorrow. We will be back tomorrow!

All mental

Just back from the hardest workout I have had so far. Not physical but mental. Three miles on the treadmill, how hard could it be. I just accomplished this Saturday night, a day and a half has passed and I should have no problem with doing it again. Wrong. I told myself I was gonna do another 3 miles today, and I wasn't leaving the gym until I did. I am sore and my knees are swollen, and I had to talk to myself for almost a mile but I did it. The funny thing is in the past when I struggled with workouts and I had to mentally get my way through them I was always negative with myself. "Look how big you've gotten! Your so fat!" ...you get the picture. This time however, not one negative thought went through my mind. It was all positive and encouraging. I won that battle. I didn't give up and I know I can work my way through it. Baby steps!

Accomplishing goals in a strange way

I added my goals to the side bar yesterday and talked about baby steps to reaching that ultimate goal in yesterdays post. I think I have warped my brain or something. It is really strange what my mind thinks about while I am trying to sleep.

So I woke up about 2:30 in the morning to pouring rain outside, but ultimately I had to go to the bathroom. While up I check on my daughter (1st night in her own big bed, yea), and then it happened. My brain stopped me from getting back in bed because I didn't have 5 glasses of water yesterday I only had 4. Yes this is what my brain is doing to me. So off to the kitchen I went for water, then back to sleep. Well at least until 4:30 in the morning when my husband came home and quietness is not something he is good at.