Sunday 2/28/10

Last day of February, my how fast the month has gone. I keep thinking I can't wait for daylight savings time to be here. Of course Sunday is a work day for me so I am stuck sitting for the next 12 hours. However, it is a beautiful day out (it has been awhile) so I will be going for a walk later this morning, and this afternoon.

Breakfast:
Sausage McMuffin w/egg
Hashbrown
Ketchup packet
Large Diet coke

Lunch:
Kinders Ball Tip Sandwich
1/2 cup potato salad (if that)
Medium Diet Pepsi (I hate pepsi)

Dinner:
2 Tacos (flour tortilla, cheese, sour cream, olives)
Diet Coke

Tomorrow is my weigh in day. I have to say I am dreading it a little bit. I did a sneak peak the other day and of course I was up some.
It is also the day to check in and see how on did on my weekly goals. I do know that I need another session on the treadmill, so I am putting that on the calendar for later tonight.

Saturday 2/27/10

Saturday is always a lazy day for me.

Breakfast:
4 Biscuits (2 with sausage gravy, 1 with jelly, 1 plain)
1/2 cup sausage gravy
2 tsp raspberry jelly
water

Lunch:
2 burger shots from Burger King (no cheese)
Large diet coke

Snack:
1/2 bag of kettle korn
1/2 medium (32oz) diet coke
2 milk duds (that is all my son would give me)

Dinner:
1 1/2 cup white rice
1 cup lemon chicken
1 fortune cookie
Large diet coke

Saturday wasn't the best either, but Sunday is a new day. Did get to go see Dear John though. It was good, took my 15 year old with me, because my husband didn't want to see it (he saw The Crazies, instead.) Was a little sick over night, I think the flu is going around. No vomiting for me, but for my 9 year old there was. Of course he was up eating fruit loops 2 hours later. And I feel a cold coming on, also going around our house.

Friday 2/26/10

Breakfast:
Rice Krispies
2% milk
1 tsp sugar

The rest of the day is one I want to forget. I was starving, but I know why and next time I just need to remember to eat better.

Thursday 2/25/10

Thursday was just an unusual day. It is normally my day off but I ended up working overtime.

Breakfast:
Rice Krispies
2% milk
1 tsp sugar

Snack:
crystal light raspberry lemondae
1 chocolate chip cookie
1 raspberry danish

Lunch:
2 packages of Burger shots from Burger King (only ate 3 of the 4)
small french fries
King Size Diet coke

Snack:
5 Girl Scout Lemonade cookies

Dinner:
1 piece dominos pizza,
1 piece cheese bread
small amount of ranch

Snack:
1/4 Dreyers Berry Blast Sherbert (blackberry, raspberry, orange sherbert)

Wednesday 2/24/10

I really have a sleep issue. Today I awoke at 2:50 and haven't been able to go back to sleep. I thought I was done with this but lately it has come back. I don't use an alarm clock anymore as I kept staring at it so it is unplugged sitting on the nightstand, I only use my cell phone as an alarm and I can't see the time. Oh well this time I finally got up about 4:20 and hit the treadmill. Yea for me!!!! It has been almost a year since I have been on one.

Workout:
20 minutes
0.825 miles
alternating incline between 6 and 5, and 3mph

Breakfast:
Big Breakfast from McDonalds (1/2 the eggs, 1 sausage patty, 2 pancakes w/syrup)
Large Diet coke

Lunch:
1/2 chicken breast (w/olive oil, lemon pepper seasoning)
2 potatos (w/2 tsp of butter, italian seasoning)

Dinner:
1 1/2 slice meatloaf (with onions, carrots, celery)
1/2 cup mashed potatos
1 Tbs mushroom gravy

Tuesday 2/23/10

I was exhausted yesterday and after dinner went straight to bed until my alarm went off at 5 am. Of course, I still hit the snooze, or so I thought, I really turned it off. Twenty minutes later I realized what I did. No worries I live only a couple minutes from work so I was on time.

Food:
Breakfast:
McDonalds Sausage Mcmuffin w/egg
Hashbrowns
Large Diet coke

Lunch:
PB&J on wheat
medium orange
Raspberry/Blackberry sparkling water

Lunch:
Grilled chicken caeser salad frm Mc Donalds
Large Coke (yuck, had maybe 4 sips from it)

Dinner:
Chicken and rice in cream of mushroom soup

Feeling better today.

Monday 2/22/10

Today is a great day so far. I got on the scale this morning and I am down 6.8 pounds. I am sure most of that is returning to my normal calorie intake (not enjoying myself too much on a cruise).

Morning weight: 277.6

Food:
Breakfast:
2 eggs
sausage
2 pieces wheat toast
1 Tb Raspberry jelly
32 ounce Diet coke

Late Lunch:
4 slices of bread
1 can tuna fish in water
2 Tb of mayo
orange

dinner:
2 cups Mac N Cheese
3 hot dogs
ketchup

Goals Week of 2/22/10

Okay I have been doing a lot of research on different blogs. I loved to read how people have lost weight and got into shape. They are motivational to me. Anyway I was reading a blog about the BMR calculator. The BMR (Basal Metabolic Rate) calculator is a tool to fiqure out how many calories your body needs on a daily basis. This is based on your weight, your height, your age, your gender, and your activity level. I finally went to the website and it says I need 2,440 calories per day. However, I just finished reading the information on how the formula is calculate and is says the only factor that is omited it the muscle-to-fat ratio. Which means that people who are very muscular (it will underestimate the caloric need) and the very fat (will overestimate caloric need) need to make corrections. I wonder how I would calculate for the error? I will do some more research.

Anyway, so 2,440 calories seems like a lot but I am sure I eat more then that on any given day. Especially when my meals are received from a drive thru window quite a bit during the week. This number is for me to maintain my weight right now. If I eat more than that I gain weight. If I eat less I lose weight. Easy as that. How can it be that simple?

Week of February 22, 2010 goals:

*Track food eaten plus calories every day (anything that goes in my mouth)
*Maintain 2,440 calories plus shoot for a 10% reduction
*Get on the treadmill at least twice this week

Three simple goals that are achievable. I also need to start thinking about rewards for me. Because it is all about me.

130!!!!!

Holy cow! I just looked at my starting weight and my goal weight, I have 130 pounds to lose. How did this happen, uugh! Got to get moving.

Why am I here?

I wish I could say I am not sure why I am here, but I know darn well why I am here. Lets start at the beginning:

I was a latch-key kid growing up, left to the food in the house.
I spent many hours outside, but couldn't make up for the amount/or type of food i would eat.
Used my weight as protection and still do! (this is gonna be a huge hurtle for me)
Had 4 high-risk pregnancies; on the couch or in bed, and nothing to do but eat.
First 2 pregnancies were back to back, gained 100 pounds total (60 and then 40 pounds).
Work at a job that I sit in a chair for 12+ hours a day.
Work at a job that is high stress, and food consists of the open fast food place.
No time to exercise!

This and I am sure many other things led me to this point. I am at my heaviest today. Granted I have been able to maintain my weight over the last 2+ years between 273 and 276, but I just took my first cruise and I wanted to enjoy myself. I guess I did! I gained almost 10 pounds in a week.
To add to all this my husband gets winded walking out to the car, although he is 6'2" and 300 pounds and the weight doesn't look as bad I think it is affecting him a lot more. One of my middle sons is up to 170 and is having issues at school. I have 3 boys and I am not concerned about them, they are fairly resilient and will work through issues. I have a 4 year old little girl who's only role model is ME. I need her to not live the life I have lived and go through all the emotional disappointments I went through growing up. If any of the kids choose to experience being overweight, that is a choice they need to make. Not be forced on them by our bad example.

We need to do something. I need to do something! It needs to start today. I need a plan! I have goals but they are so far off at this point they seem unattainable. I need a plan, and goals (milestones) that are not so far out of reach. Check back as I spend my time creating my plan and working it. Watch as I reach those milestones and help me to reach those goals. Goals that I have had since I was 11.