All mental

Just back from the hardest workout I have had so far. Not physical but mental. Three miles on the treadmill, how hard could it be. I just accomplished this Saturday night, a day and a half has passed and I should have no problem with doing it again. Wrong. I told myself I was gonna do another 3 miles today, and I wasn't leaving the gym until I did. I am sore and my knees are swollen, and I had to talk to myself for almost a mile but I did it. The funny thing is in the past when I struggled with workouts and I had to mentally get my way through them I was always negative with myself. "Look how big you've gotten! Your so fat!" ...you get the picture. This time however, not one negative thought went through my mind. It was all positive and encouraging. I won that battle. I didn't give up and I know I can work my way through it. Baby steps!

Accomplishing goals in a strange way

I added my goals to the side bar yesterday and talked about baby steps to reaching that ultimate goal in yesterdays post. I think I have warped my brain or something. It is really strange what my mind thinks about while I am trying to sleep.

So I woke up about 2:30 in the morning to pouring rain outside, but ultimately I had to go to the bathroom. While up I check on my daughter (1st night in her own big bed, yea), and then it happened. My brain stopped me from getting back in bed because I didn't have 5 glasses of water yesterday I only had 4. Yes this is what my brain is doing to me. So off to the kitchen I went for water, then back to sleep. Well at least until 4:30 in the morning when my husband came home and quietness is not something he is good at.

Gym

I actually made it to the gym 3 times this week and the week is not over. Wednesday I took my son and he wanted to work his arms, so we did a random arm work out (my arms are still sore), and then 30 minutes on the treadmill. Friday I snuck out late and headed over to the gym; did 30 minutes on treadmill before heading back home. Last night, I also had to go late, but I was able to get in 60 minutes on the treadmill and felt fine afterwards.



I have that urge again to run. I do this everytime I start working out again. I have the urge to run so I do. Usually that results in getting tired too fast, disapointment that I can't run like I want too, or an injury. All of which have helped me to quit a number of times before. So I have to fight that urge for a little while otherwise it will just be like all the other times. Did I mention I hate running! I never have liked running! So this is a good sign I guess. I will get there, it will just take a little bit more time. I do have plans to run a few 5k, 10k, half, and full's and I even kinda know which ones I want to do. So there are end goals in mind, they are just a little out of reach right now. But for now I have acomplished my goal for this week (3x at the gym).



Baby steps!

Happy late Easter!

Happy late Easter to everyone! I, of course, had to work, but as I posted on my facebook page. I am very thankful for a great husband who is willing to cook everything and to do it for 8 people. It was a great dinner and I only had to show up.

I am feeling much better over the last couple of days, my pants are fitting normal again. I thought for a few days that I really wasn't going to make it.

Easter was good I bought a few things of candy for the kids, but I only had one candy bar which is amazing for me. Usually I buy the candy I like and then share it with the kids. This time I bought what they like.

Hoping to get back to the gym tonight. I wanted to go last night but I wasn't quite sure that they were open. Of course I did not call or even drive down there. But I knew if I did my my motivation to go would go right out the window. We will see tonight.