Its always a struggle

I know I shouldn't even give it a second thought but it is driving me crazy. I got on the scale a few hours ago, and it says I gained 8 pounds in the last day and a half. The funny thing is I haven't really eaten a lot of crappy food, but I can tell I gained weight some how as my work pants are not fitting properly. But TOM came to visit and it surprises me that I could gain that much weight, but I guess it is possible. I tried to put the numbers on the scale out of my mind but I couldn't and ended up at the gym before coming to work. I had planned to go anyway, but I guess it was just more motivation to really show up there. I will pay the price in a few hours when I am so exhausted I can't keep my eyes open at work.

Today's workout 40 minutes on the treadmill and 15 minutes on the rowing machine.

Monday again already...

The weekend goes by way to fast. Well my body never left my bed this morning to go to the gym, but there are good reasons for that. The person who comes in to relieve me at work called in sick. Since there is no overlap I was kinda screwed. I did get ahold of a couple of people finally and was able to leave by 6 pm, but I had to be back by 4 am. When you work 12 hour shifts and people call in sick it really screws with the whole day. Anyway, so by the time I got home and had dinner and dealt with the kids it was 9 pm before I got to bed. It is days like this that I am glad I live 1/4 mile from work and didn't have to get up until 3 am. So 6 hours in the bed and I am back up for a 14 hour shift today. Hopefully my relief will be in tonight and I can still make it to the gym, after all it is still Monday.

I actually think I am looking forward to the treadmill tonight.

I am, also, hoping to put in another quick trip to the gym in the morning before I come back to work.

New Gym

My son had a free year membership for 24 Hour Fitness for their Varsity Program, so while we were there signing him up. I convinced my husband that we should do it as well. So we did!

Big time score! I have been wanting to join 24 Hour Fitness for along time, but it would cost too much to add all the kids, who also want to go to the gym.

It has been just over a week now, and I have only been once. But I kinda got in a funk and haven't been able to get out of it. I was constantly tired, and my body aches. I think I was trying to fight off some illness and it looks like I was successful. So we are starting a new this week. The sun is out (although I think it is suppose to rain the next 4 days) and I am feeling better. The worst part is my ever changing work schedule. I had plans to go early in the morning on Monday (tomorrow), but now my relief just called in sick, and no one has called in to pick up the shift. I may be stuck here until 10 pm. Since I have been here since 6 am, and I am due back at 6 am I doubt I will be able to go to the gym in the morning.Why, why why? If it is not one thing it is another it seems like.

Although if I do not get some of this weight off I will have to buy new work pants soon (very soon). These ones are too tight already. These pants are not cheap and they only new pants I want to buy for work are smaller ones.

New Day

Today is a new day. No exercise, other than walking out to the football field for the Lacrosse game and then froze my butt off sitting there. I guess you burn more calories trying to stay warm ;)

Short day at work, but I really had a hard time getting out of bed. I think part of the reason I am in such a slump is it has been so gloomy here all the time. We get maybe one day of sun every week and that is tough. Especially since I sit in an office all day that has 5 windows and none of them are near me. I truely crave the sunshine. Watching the weather this morning, looks like Sunday is the only promising day this week, but I will be in the office. I must remember to go out for a walk on my lunch or something. The sun appears to be coming up this morning, but who knows how long that will last.

Breakfast:

2 Eggs

1/8 cup Sausage

1/4 cup cheese

Large Diet coke

Lunch:

Sleep deprived...as usual!

I thought I did so good yesterday, but when I got on the scale this morning (cause I forgot yesterday). I was up to 282. How depressing! I just want to go back and lay in bed this morning. It is way to early for news like that.

I guess if you look on the bright side. I may have done good yesterday, and I really did lose but I am still trying to make up for the terrible week before.

Of course, when I got home last night the husband was cooking Pork Chops from one of his many Food Network marathons. They were fairly good, but I didn't ask what was in them. I just ate the little bit of the one I had, sharing it with the 4 year old, and then ate veggies and rice.

I sat on the computer last night for probably 2 hours, and the only thing I could think of was I really need to get up and get on the treadmill. Did I? No! I finally went to bed at 9 pm telling myself that I will do it in the morning. Why is it that when I want to get up early, its like someone is holding my eyes down so I can't see to get up. But any other time, I am wide awake at the strangest hours. Of course, I reset my alarm and didn't get up for another hour. I feel like I need more sleep than I am getting. But it is pretty bad when my bed time is well before my kids. I know darn well that if I just could get myself on the treadmill I will feel so much better, and I will probably sleep better.

Long day at work today, 12 hours of sitting on my butt. I wish there was someway we could change that but, it is not possible.

Breakfast:
Large Diet Coke
2 eggs
1/4 cup sausage

Lunch:
2 orders BK Burger shots
Medium Diet Coke

Snack:
8 Milk Duds

Dinner:
Caspers Hot Dogs w/cheese
Wendy's Medium Diet Coke

Calories: 1674, Carbs:124, Fat:90, Protein:91

Step on yesterday...!

Yesterday is done and over with...for that matter last week is done and over with. I really have got to get things together here.

No weigh-in today, I just got out of bed and got dressed before I realized it was Monday. So I will have numbers tomorrow.

Breakfast:

1/2 Sausage McMuffin w/egg

Large Diet Coke (but looks like I only drank about 3/4 of it)

Lunch:

Turkey and cheese sandwich on sourdough bread w/small amount of regular mayo

Mozarella and Garlic Sausage

Dinner:

Pork Chops

Asparagus (baked in Balsamic Vinagrette, pepper, kosher salt)

Canned corn

RiceARoni (Chicken flavor)

Calories:2532, Carbs:224, Fat 96, Protein:199

Really?

I suck. I went on days off on Tuesday and didn't look back. I was on the computer a number of times during the last few days but I didn't even want to look at the list. Well now it is Sunday and I have no clue, and wouldn't even think about going back and try and fiqure it out. I got on the scale a couple of times over the weekend and things look good for a lose, but I guess we will see tomorrow morning (official weigh in). That is a plus at least. I know I have failed at all of my goals this week, but hey, at least I haven't given up.

Tuesday 3/2/10...Tuesday Blues

I feel like cr*p. I officially have a nasty cold, and I think I had the flu over the last several days. I weighed myself this morning and I was up 1.8 pounds, which I guess isn't too bad considering the kind of food I ate last week. I ate out a lot. This morning again I was awake at 4 am, however, this time just as I got back to sleep, our Blue and Gold Macaw starting freaking out. This is very unusual and has never happened in the 2 years since we had him. We have a mouse that is living in our family room somewhere. We have tried and tried and can't seem to catch it. However, this morning I think it tried to get in the birds cage to get the seed droppings and it scared the bird. I am hoping we can catch the little guy before he has a billion more little guys.

So ever since then I have been up. These 12 hour shift don't help with being sick either. I think that was my down fall last week. I was getting sick and it was my long week 3- 12 hours shifts and and 8 hour shift. This is my short week and I will have 4 days off....I will need them to recover.

Breakfast:
Small box fruit loops
1/2 cup 2% milk
Jimmy Dean Sausage D-Lites Breakfast Bowl
Large Diet Coke
Raspberry Yoplait Yogurt
Country Style OJ
(not all of this was consumed at once, I had it over a 5 hour period) (approx 650 calories)

Lunch:
Chicken Pot Pie Soup (170 calories)
3 corn bread muffin
1 tsp " I can't believe its not butter"
Verry Berry Sparkling mineral Water

Dinner:

Aah Monday is here......uuh ooh

Here we are Monday, March 1st. I can not believe that we are almost a 1/4 of the way through the year already.

Goal check in: I suck.
*Track food- okay so I did this everyday, Thursday I choose to skip...not to bad

*Track calories - yea that lasted all of about 1 day...I think it was depressing to see that the foods I was eating are huge in calories. It was very eye opening. I need to continue to work on this.

*Maintain 2,440 calories--yea i doubt it, but I am making food alterations, and changing things up so this may be possible in the near future.

*10% reduction in calories - I guess I can say this is a failure, but I have to believe that I did get a 10% reduction from where I was to begin with, just not from where I wanted to be.

*Get on treadmill at least twice this week --I think just get on the treadmill would have been a better goal. I did once, and I felt great. Although I didn't include any other exercise, I did do some shoulder and arm exercised everyday for a few minutes with 5 lbs weights.

So, yea I suck, but I learned some valuable lessons that will help me so I can't say it was too much of a bust.

Goals for week March 1:
*Track food eaten
*Track calories and try and get as many days as possible at or under 2,400 calories.
*Treadmill...just get on it.

I keep thinking there are more goals that I need to list here but I just can't think of them at the moment....They will come to me in time. I do, however, have a cousin who is struggling with her weight as well. She is really frustrated right now, I need to send her an email. That keeps crossing my mind so I will do that so my mind will clear.

Weigh In
I didn't do it yet, which means that my numbers will be skewed as later in the day I am usually at my heaviest....I will do it when I get home tonight, but if I don't like the number I will wait until the morning to get on it.

Breakfast:
Raspberry Yoplait Yogurt
Large Diet Coke
Small Bowl Apple Jacks
1/2 cup 2% milk

Lunch:
Progresso Vegetable and Chicken Soup
3 Corn muffins
small amount (not even teaspoon) I Can't Believe Its Not Butter

Dinner:
Spaghetti
Tomato Sauce w/mushrooms, hamburger, sausage, garlic, onions, green bell peppers
3 slices of garlic bread w/small amount of cheese.
Diet Coke
small glass Kool-Aid