All mental

Just back from the hardest workout I have had so far. Not physical but mental. Three miles on the treadmill, how hard could it be. I just accomplished this Saturday night, a day and a half has passed and I should have no problem with doing it again. Wrong. I told myself I was gonna do another 3 miles today, and I wasn't leaving the gym until I did. I am sore and my knees are swollen, and I had to talk to myself for almost a mile but I did it. The funny thing is in the past when I struggled with workouts and I had to mentally get my way through them I was always negative with myself. "Look how big you've gotten! Your so fat!" ...you get the picture. This time however, not one negative thought went through my mind. It was all positive and encouraging. I won that battle. I didn't give up and I know I can work my way through it. Baby steps!

Accomplishing goals in a strange way

I added my goals to the side bar yesterday and talked about baby steps to reaching that ultimate goal in yesterdays post. I think I have warped my brain or something. It is really strange what my mind thinks about while I am trying to sleep.

So I woke up about 2:30 in the morning to pouring rain outside, but ultimately I had to go to the bathroom. While up I check on my daughter (1st night in her own big bed, yea), and then it happened. My brain stopped me from getting back in bed because I didn't have 5 glasses of water yesterday I only had 4. Yes this is what my brain is doing to me. So off to the kitchen I went for water, then back to sleep. Well at least until 4:30 in the morning when my husband came home and quietness is not something he is good at.

Gym

I actually made it to the gym 3 times this week and the week is not over. Wednesday I took my son and he wanted to work his arms, so we did a random arm work out (my arms are still sore), and then 30 minutes on the treadmill. Friday I snuck out late and headed over to the gym; did 30 minutes on treadmill before heading back home. Last night, I also had to go late, but I was able to get in 60 minutes on the treadmill and felt fine afterwards.



I have that urge again to run. I do this everytime I start working out again. I have the urge to run so I do. Usually that results in getting tired too fast, disapointment that I can't run like I want too, or an injury. All of which have helped me to quit a number of times before. So I have to fight that urge for a little while otherwise it will just be like all the other times. Did I mention I hate running! I never have liked running! So this is a good sign I guess. I will get there, it will just take a little bit more time. I do have plans to run a few 5k, 10k, half, and full's and I even kinda know which ones I want to do. So there are end goals in mind, they are just a little out of reach right now. But for now I have acomplished my goal for this week (3x at the gym).



Baby steps!

Happy late Easter!

Happy late Easter to everyone! I, of course, had to work, but as I posted on my facebook page. I am very thankful for a great husband who is willing to cook everything and to do it for 8 people. It was a great dinner and I only had to show up.

I am feeling much better over the last couple of days, my pants are fitting normal again. I thought for a few days that I really wasn't going to make it.

Easter was good I bought a few things of candy for the kids, but I only had one candy bar which is amazing for me. Usually I buy the candy I like and then share it with the kids. This time I bought what they like.

Hoping to get back to the gym tonight. I wanted to go last night but I wasn't quite sure that they were open. Of course I did not call or even drive down there. But I knew if I did my my motivation to go would go right out the window. We will see tonight.

Its always a struggle

I know I shouldn't even give it a second thought but it is driving me crazy. I got on the scale a few hours ago, and it says I gained 8 pounds in the last day and a half. The funny thing is I haven't really eaten a lot of crappy food, but I can tell I gained weight some how as my work pants are not fitting properly. But TOM came to visit and it surprises me that I could gain that much weight, but I guess it is possible. I tried to put the numbers on the scale out of my mind but I couldn't and ended up at the gym before coming to work. I had planned to go anyway, but I guess it was just more motivation to really show up there. I will pay the price in a few hours when I am so exhausted I can't keep my eyes open at work.

Today's workout 40 minutes on the treadmill and 15 minutes on the rowing machine.

Monday again already...

The weekend goes by way to fast. Well my body never left my bed this morning to go to the gym, but there are good reasons for that. The person who comes in to relieve me at work called in sick. Since there is no overlap I was kinda screwed. I did get ahold of a couple of people finally and was able to leave by 6 pm, but I had to be back by 4 am. When you work 12 hour shifts and people call in sick it really screws with the whole day. Anyway, so by the time I got home and had dinner and dealt with the kids it was 9 pm before I got to bed. It is days like this that I am glad I live 1/4 mile from work and didn't have to get up until 3 am. So 6 hours in the bed and I am back up for a 14 hour shift today. Hopefully my relief will be in tonight and I can still make it to the gym, after all it is still Monday.

I actually think I am looking forward to the treadmill tonight.

I am, also, hoping to put in another quick trip to the gym in the morning before I come back to work.

New Gym

My son had a free year membership for 24 Hour Fitness for their Varsity Program, so while we were there signing him up. I convinced my husband that we should do it as well. So we did!

Big time score! I have been wanting to join 24 Hour Fitness for along time, but it would cost too much to add all the kids, who also want to go to the gym.

It has been just over a week now, and I have only been once. But I kinda got in a funk and haven't been able to get out of it. I was constantly tired, and my body aches. I think I was trying to fight off some illness and it looks like I was successful. So we are starting a new this week. The sun is out (although I think it is suppose to rain the next 4 days) and I am feeling better. The worst part is my ever changing work schedule. I had plans to go early in the morning on Monday (tomorrow), but now my relief just called in sick, and no one has called in to pick up the shift. I may be stuck here until 10 pm. Since I have been here since 6 am, and I am due back at 6 am I doubt I will be able to go to the gym in the morning.Why, why why? If it is not one thing it is another it seems like.

Although if I do not get some of this weight off I will have to buy new work pants soon (very soon). These ones are too tight already. These pants are not cheap and they only new pants I want to buy for work are smaller ones.